Had a fever yesterday – very unpleasant. Though I stayed out as long as possible – didn’t want to go home. Coming home meant calling my professor (with whom I’m writing my paper and with whom the last and only time I talked to was the beginning of December!). On the way back Pina scared the shit out of me by saying that somebody from the dean’s office told her that that professor is not helping me anymore and I should find myself somebody else. When I asked my good friend Pina – when did you hear this – the answer was: “I dunno – maybe it was today, or Friday…” Now can somebody tell me is it alright to forget whether it was today or 5 days ago? What can I say – that’s my buddy Pina.
When I called my professor – she said everything was fine. I’m handing the draft in on Monday, but for Christ sake I was worried sick for two hours before I called her – thank you Pina for giving me a nervous breakdown with something… that just came to your mind!
The Mexican party was alright I guess – but that’s just for me cause I left early. There was a fight at night for no good reason – tables flying (and I’m not exaggerating), choking, stealing property, hitting women and what not – yeah it was a mess. Though the food was great!
I just noticed – I can’t type Russian in here, or can I? Я завтра сматываюсь в деревню до понедельника – всем пока!
Velasquez… in his 30ies, dark spanish beard (понятия не имею как будет испанка по-английски, а в словарь лезть ой как лень!), long blond hair, beautiful eyes, first class criminal…my type of guy…
But:
If I don’t believe in Jesus – how can I believe in pope?
If I don’t believe in heroine – how can I believe in dope?
If there’s nothing but survival – how can I believe in sin?
In a world that gives you nothing we need something… to believe in.
JBJ
Velasquez...
Just spend 4 hours watching the World Ice-skating championship live from Germany. The results were pretty much predictable, though I thought that a knight had appeared already, I guess not yet. Brian got the silver and Plushenko (of course) got the gold. I can’t even say that it was unfair – it was fair. Yes I admit it – I don’t pretty much like Plushenko as I’m a fan of Yagudin who is a professional now. He’s helping 19 year old Brian Joulbert (God I hope his last name is spelled like that, if not I’ll correct it later) who is French – preparing him for new battles with Plushenko.
Brian made a great performance tonight, the only problem is – Plushenko had more difficult elements in his. Even the fact that Plushenko made a quite unprofessional fall did not stop him from reserving the title “King on Ice” (google it up if you wanna know what I’m talking about).
Anyway things will never be the same without Yagudin who for many of us shall always remain the true King of the Ring.
It’s raining and I have to work on my thesis… Urghhhh…That’s so lame.
Can anybody help me disappear for a couple of days? Vanish…
Ok, I think I’ve stopped understanding people so I’ve decided to just go with the flow. Too much information is filling up my head on the day when basically the only thing I should be thinking about is the paper. But I can’t do that. All of these questions that I want and can’t ask are circling in my head and I can’t get them out. So I’m really afraid about tomorrow that I might get drunk and as a result – ask these questions that I shouldn’t or just say something dumb or stupid – which is the same thing.
Please excuse me for all the insanity I just wrote. I just thought it would be better if I warn people.
…is on Monday so for all of those who are in town – I’m expecting to see your happy faces at Boarhouse around 7 o’clock:)
A whole night without drinking! Yay! This hasn’t happened since the beginning of December! Yay!..
And it was tough too. I went to Boarhouse and had to sit next to a whole bunch of these shiny sweaty beautiful beer glasses and tonight was a special night when Guiness was only 50rub.
The Peter group is in town…
And what happened? What did he do? He hasn’t paid any attention to me at all… Why?… Because he wasn’t there! (And who did you think I was talking about?;)) My Barman! So that disappointed me… a little:)
But the rest of the night was fun. Timochka kept me company and I’m thinking about hooking up with him now:) Tim, what do ya say?;) Then Noah taught me a game I think it’s called “Kill Fuck Marry” which was quite interesting. Noah is cute too, so I’m puzzled for the moment…:) Though you know, guys, I think my heart already belongs to somebody, though he doesn’t seem to notice that… Jon I always wanted to tell you that I’ll never forgive you for not taking me to Barcelona with you! We could’ve made wonderful music together!:) “If I’m not the one you want – who’s he?.. Take your time to figure out…”
Alex Levy, my editor, my love, my life:) when will the flowers be ready, honey? I’m not pushing or anything – I’m as gentle as possible as you can see.
Here’s something good – Louren told me today that the Angry Scott is gonna be in town on the 30th of March! For those who don’t know, he’s been here last year in the first semester. Looks like he’s getting a job and stayin’ with us.
And the best I’m saving for last:) Anya Kogan is getting in tomorrow! That’s like amazing and is not alright in my head. I mean it would be so weird seeing her here in Moscow, in our University, in Boarhouse! I’m sure she’ll have a great time as we have great animators (people who’ve been to Egypt should understand that word correctly):)
Really this thesis thing is driving me insane. I will never get it done! Ever! I need to call my coordinator today and the last and the first time I spoke with her was the beginning of December!!! March 15 is the day the paper is due – I haven’t written a single page yet. So I’m devoting this whole day to it.
And I’m broke… Those are the two problems I have in my life right now – absence of money and a 50 pages long thesis… Can somebody please shoot me! Well there is another little problem but it’s too little to write about it over here… or maybe not. Too personal? Not really – all my girlz know about it…I just don’t want to talk about it right now.
Adam and Tom are coming back tomorrow, I can’t wait to talk to them! I wanna go back to Sharm with some barman from Boarhouse… Speaking of which – today is Doug’s birthday – 8pm – anyone interested?
Thanks Steve!:)
8th of March went by pretty fast and without any trace. No more champagne and the flowers are dead by now… We were celebrating it at Boarhouse beside a group of some cute Italians unfortunately we hadn’t had a chance to introduce ourselves… though wait! We did have that chance.
Just so happened that pretty much all of us turned our heads at the same time and saw… a guy who all of us seemed to remember but we couldn’t figure out where we knew him from and what was his name. So I went over to him and as soon as he saw me he said “Hi” and I walked over to him and soon I realized that it was Rick from the group that was here last spring. Josh, Tim, Alex, Paul – you guys should remember him. He was on this individual program or something. Now he’s here for 5 years:) AND he was with that group of cute Italians;)
Also we saw a pretty shallow parody on striptease that night… She was in her 30ies and she was fat drunk and ugly… That was our “women’s day”…
I wanna go back to karate and I can’t find any of the guys that I studied it with:( Damnit..
Ok guyz, this is a pole I’m throwing (did I get that right?) – question: How many of you are “interested” in girls from 9-14 years old?:) I’m reading Lolita and wanna know how many of you like that are outthere…
Googoo Dolls --- Iris…
There are a few things in life that really piss me off. One of them is about how girls can’t have or do the same things men do…
For instance – if a girl has a lot of guys she’ll be called a whore. On the other hand – if a man has a lot of women – he’s the coolest guy ever. And I think I’m figuring out who’s fault is it.
So I watched this fairly new Rus movie - Boomer – yesterday. It’s about a car and four guys in it… In the end all but one gets killed and even the BMW dies… fascinating… Well anyway it got me thinking about how come it’s like that? I mean why such things as real –“men friendship” - exist and nothing like that for women? Most people even think that such a thing as “girls friendship” doesn’t exist at all because all of us hate each other and - what can I say – we’re all bitches…
Maybe that’s why we’re more miserable than men. Men support each other – for them first place goes to friendship and then everything follows (the woman takes 4-5 place in that list). And what about women? Let’s see what their list of priorities is…
1. “I need a man”
2. …. Everything else follows. But for any woman that’s the first thing on the mind. And that’s what’s killing me… Why do we think so much about those who treat us like shit when we could think about all sorts of different things? Or am I completely wrong about all this?
Everybody is gone. The group went to St. Pete, not all of it though… There is a couple of lucky bastards who are frying their asses off at the beach where I’M supposed to be! Damnit Adam! I hope you guys are having a good time!:) The same I hope for everyone in Peter! And I’m gonna spend the whole fucking weekend working on my fucking thesis that is due March 15!
Oh and for those who are not in the country: JON WAS ON TV YESTERDAY:)
P.S For my beloved editor: I hope you took a look at those flowers...the week has gone by already..
I had a dream today that I was talking to you and telling you how bad it is that you’re not answering peoples emails… And by the way somebody told me to say “Hi” to you and tell you that she’s pretty interested in how you’re doin’;)
Sometimes I think that that one more day and I’ll die… Class from 10am-6pm…how’s that? With a lunch break – 30min… They are creating monsters!
Metro – I fucking hate it…
They were showing Oscar yesterday and guess what? I missed almost all of it…
Men – I think they forgot that I exist… Well except for Mathew, my Englishman:) - what a relief…
8th of March is coming up… Should I hang myself now?
They promised – 21C at night in the end of the week! And they call it SPRING???
But no no no – that’s not how I should be thinking!
I love going to the University! Imagine that I have an opportunity of seeing my friends 8 hours a day!
Metro is a great place to think and to observe people. After one trip – you can tell so many funny stories!
I loved how Sean Penn played in the Mystic River and -imagine that – he got an Oscar for that part! I felt proud…
Men are great – I dunno what I’d do with out them. I guess I’m just not ready for anything right now. But pretty soon I’m sure I will be. And I’m not gonna see Mathew any time soon:)
8th of March is a great holiday! I’m sure we’re gonna party and get drunk – at least those of us who are still single… and there are a lot of us like that!:)
Yay! –21C! Masha, that means we can still go skating! The season is not over yet!!!
There… Now I feel much better:)